Thursday, January 2, 2014

2014 Resolutions

"Mom, Elmo's on.  Shut that thing off."

1. Acts of Hospitality (mostly focused on inside my home, but outside too).
I want my house to be a home.  I want people to stop by.  Come over for dinner. Sit on the back porch by the fire pit.  Exhale and feel comfortable.
2. Document 1000 gifts. Without quitting. Even if people question my intentions.
I WAS doing this, but I quit because someone questioned my intentions. How foolish of me.  So I'm starting again. (Maybe one of my resolutions would be to quit caring what people think about me so much...)
3. The baby books.  For the love of God, the baby books!
There's no explanation.  Just do it, man!
4. Trip to Disney.
Booked, y'all.  BOOM.
5. Go see TJ's grandpa in NM
Love this man. Love this family.  I would adore going at the time of the balloon festival so we will just have to see how it all plays out. 
6. Tone down thighs and waist (I'm talkin' inches, people!)
I'm continuing to jog.  I need to find a plan for this one.  I guess I'll go to Pinterest. Where all the trainers hang out.
7. Finish a 5K (actual race, not in my neighborhood.)
Signed up. BOOM.
8. Sell stuff that's clogging our lives.
I loathe garage sales and I get nervous for people to come scope out stuff I've put on Craigslist.  Any ideas for how to sell stuff another way?
9. FINISH.  
I know alot of people have a focus word for the year as opposed to resolutions.  I would say that if I had to have a word it would be FINISH. I can sometimes crap out at the end and I dislike that.  So I want to finish well. 

Our People and My Cabinets


Remember a few posts ago when I said I had really disorganized cabinets? And remember how I told you to come over and look at them?  Well, I had a chance to put my money where my mouth was. (Is. Which is it?)

Sis turned 5 and we had a big party at our house for her.  We had our church pastor there, our friends, Faith's friends, family, and even the neighbors over.  I really tried to focus on making the day about the people and not stressing about my house and everything being in the proper place.  But I walked into the house and saw my husband and Faith's best friend's mom looking through our cabinets.  And everyone in the kitchen was watching them.  In disbelief. In disgust. In fear, I'm sure. Guys, it was like an Mt. Vesuvius of mismatched tupperware erupted and they were all standing in the wake! I stopped right in my tracks and just stood there with my chin hitting the floor.  I started making nervous comments about how disorganized they were and how I was having some sort of deja vu moment.  Everybody kept telling me that they weren't that bad.  (Yes, I have good friends that lie to me. Ha ha!) And maybe they're not.  But I know this- when everyone left I told TJ that I either need to 1)be okay with people seeing my cabinets like that or 2)organize the D#$% things! Well, that was a month ago and I have made no efforts to organize them so I guess I'm okay with you all seeing them like that. Unless you're OCD. Then don't put yourself through that kind of misery.

Speaking of Faith's party, I was completely overcome with thankfulness for our community of friends afterwards.  I just love our people.  I seriously get giddy thinking about how completely diverse they are and how they love our children so well and are so overwhelmingly wonderful to us Aragons that completely suck at being good friends. I love that we have one friend covered in tattoos talking to our opera singer friend next to our race car driving friend who is talking with our neighbor who is a 50-year-old student.  And don't forget our horse riding, harley riding pastor and his daughter that did horse rides for the kids. I LOVE LOVE LOVE it.  And then I walk in the house and there's kids playing everywhere and my family is all in there talking and having fun.  Pure bliss.  It, of course, got a little crazy when Faith knocked the opera singer's daughter's tooth out and busted her lip on the lawyer's daughter's head.  But whatevs. That's how we do a cowgirl party around here!



Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Why I Can't Get Over Christmas

OK.  Let's just take a minute to wash away all of the crapola that's infiltrated our lives this week.  Real, heartbreaking life moments like a hospital telling you your grandma was going to die (true story) all the way down to all the Duck Dynasty junk, let it wash away. Because today is Christmas. And I just can't get over it. I cry at almost every hymn, every carol, every song declaring that baby Jesus is here.

I just can't get over it. Over the love story between Mary and Joseph.  How their love grew out of God's plan for a Savior.  Mary, just a teenager, finds herself pregnant and chooses to simply worship God in that moment.  Have you read that lately? Go back it the Bible and find it. Her wisdom was beyond her years.   And Joseph.  I'm sure he was not prepared for what was going to happen when he became betrothed to little ol' Mary next door.  He had every reason to not believe her, but chose to shield and protect her from accusations and fierce words and led her through the harsh conditions all the way to a stable in Bethlehem.

When I think of the magi I immediately think of the hymn "Come Thou Long Expected Jesus."  And I imagine their discussions while traveling.  Their giddiness must have been infectious. Or people thought they were crazy. Probably both. All the prophecy they had poured their lives into rode on this one star.  How full of faith they must have been.  I can imagine God's heart being so happy watching their journey to worship Jesus.

The shepherds.  Let's just skip the CHOIR OF ANGELS in the field, which awesomeness has no bounds, for a second.  (And yes, I do imagine a huge choir singing praise music with hands raises and lots of clapping and dancing and jumping.) The shepherds were the first visitors to see Jesus.  And I know that this isn't in the Bible, but I imagine them worshipping Jesus and Mary asking, "Would you like to hold him?"  I imagine burly men with beards and young soft-skinned shepherds weeping while holding Jesus, shushing him when he starts to whimper; his little hands wrapping around their rough fingers.

I can't even begin to think about Mary looking into His eyes after He was born.  Singing him the lullabies she'd heard her mama sing hundreds of times. Calming a baby that would calm her heart many times over.  I'm sure the mundane things of motherhood took on new meaning when you're mothering the Messiah.  Get his bottom extra clean? Check.  Lotion him until he smells heavenly, but not until he's slippery? Check.  And let's not forget that she was doing this as a teenager without her family around to give her advice or hold the baby while she took a shower.

Joseph holds a special place in my heart.  A daddy's job is vast.  First he must learn to become a super swaddler.  Obviously he had that down because it was mentioned in Scripture.  Teaching Jesus how to fix things around the house and how to be a gentlemen must have been such a privilege and an honor to Joseph. And I've seen the look in a daddy's eyes when their baby gazes up at them.  I can just see Joseph's eyes welling up with tears as Jesus settled in his arms for a bit. I can see Joseph silently smile at his wife when Jesus made those little baby noises while he slept. How he jumped at every little move Jesus made during those first few nights.

Do you think they knew all the prophecies when the angels came to them?  Or do you think they immediately went and read them all?  I can see their heartbroken faces when they realized the baby they just felt kick in the womb would be brutally murdered before them, but that he was also the Redeemer of a broken people. Young parents that had equal parts joy and horror before them.

I wonder how God felt that night?  It's hard for me to put myself in God's shoes, but as a parent, I think it had to be bittersweet.  I think back to Abraham and Isaac and I know God was just wishing someone would come out of the bushes and say, "WAIT! There's another way!"  But He knew this was it.  At the same moment Mary was filled with the most joy she'd ever experienced, God must have been looking down, with tears streaming down his face- his beloved Son was the Hope of his people.

So I'll always cry when I hear "O Holy Night." My voice will shake while reading the story to my children as tears stream down my face. Because God's mercy was shown to me that night in Bethlehem. And it is something I will never get over. I don't want to.